I just can’t bury it all like most people can. I can’t push it out of my mind. Every moment of every day there is a war in me that wreaks havoc and destroys my insides. My brain is endlessly battered with waves of doubt and guilt and my heart is wrapped in thorns that grow tighter and tighter, squeezing the life out of me. All I can do is wait and watch and hope that after it all eventually burns down, my soul will have a chance to rebuild itself from the smoldering wreckage.